make a wish...

i wish to eat an icecream today..and then maybe curl up in a nyc cozy blanket and sleep...
i wish to celebrate sunshine's bday with him..n eat the entire chocolate cake
.i wish to live in my fantasy world every moment..nd nobody to pull me out of it..
i wish to run in :)'s arms...and stay there FOREVER.. wish to stop missing him...nd wish he could stop hating me
i wish to live on a rainbow...nd hav a lil party..wth loadsa frnds...nd :)
i wish yummy stuff to be low carb
n den maybe i could feast on puchka, maggy,chocolates,cakes..nd never bloat...i wish
i wish to never to be mean
i wish to get myself new shoes (lol)
i wish to shop..nd never run outta money
i wish to be lonely and happy at the same time..
i wish to cry out loud whenever i want and nobody pity me
i wish to make my parents proud one day
i wish my fairy godmother to be with me ..nd listen to what i wish for


i wish to get my life back...i wish to be me...
i wish i could turn back time...nd live all the moments of smiles
i wish ..all my wishes to come true someday

its raining men....

with my highest level of will power i decided to complete all my levels of sleep in one go..
yawned...moaned...and then mumbled about lack of sleep from past few days and the tired hangover..i landed on my bed to...*yaawwwnnn*....ZZzzz......


                   ~ ~..what is that noice?? somebody is beating up ..haww...they are fighting..! hang on...thats my name.. something is really fishy....
...yeah it is..~ ~ i woke up to find allaoudin bhaiya rapping at my door...at 5 in the morning....i hugged my self and my pillow..it was chilly...ac blasting full on...sat upright on the bed imagning that he is not waking me up when every dog is sleeping in the hostel...and even if he does like some bad witch in sleep i'll hypnotise and send him back soo not to disturb my blissfull nap...but to my not-so-lucky luck day....he rapped again "kaushiki didi open the doors jee"
(wonder.. when your roomies are off to there places for the "fun" on weekends and you are left behind to open doors at 5 in the morning ..)

anyhow ..back to the drowsy half dozing and half swearing me..
i sleepily put my foot down....WHAT THE F...!
(er..sorry) ...my chappals were floating...and it seemd even my bed's a good swimmer...
so jumping in the little swimmingpool i had in my room i opend the doors and allaoudin bhaiya's asked.."aapke room main pani bhar gaya hain?"
"(nahi nahi mujhe shoq h pani main bed lagane ka) ha bhaiya bhar gaya hai"

i was fuming...and swearing bhi...nd den alloudin bhaiya opend the doors to the terrace...

BLODDY HELLL!!
it was butiful....i've never seen such a butiful scene before..

the leaved were shimmering...tiny drops of water on the petals

i frgt everything....rain was almost over..nd i was cursing my luck.....
thinking that atleast i startd my day with the awsum mausam even though no bheegna in tha rain..
i prepared to plonk again and dive in sleep again..

it satrted pourin again.....

unhi rasston se gujarte hue ek raatmene apni ruh ke andhero se pucha vo yaad jo nahi mit ti
vo baat jo nahi hat ti...kabhi bhula paungi use?
andar se ek awaz ayi koshish karna to zindgai ne seekhaya hai par marz ki dawa to khuda he de sakta hai

seham ke ghabra ke apne aanchal me simat ke aasman ko jhanka
kahi khuda mil jaye to unse puchungi ye reham mere naseeb ka rukh kab karega

khuda bhi has ke ye puche ye reham mere dil ki chahat hai ya nahi...

genie still in d bottle..

well...when i did my debut entry in d blogging world....my frnds were very bemused nd obv very much excited to knw..y i named my blog as "genie in the bottle"..since my kid-me days ...every blody book&copy had dese few wrds scribbled on d front page..like evry lil kid d wrd "magic" fascinated me..nani used to narrate me stories abt good genies..bad genies..fairies..i was very amused abt the fact dat y d hell a genie lives in a small bottle...y nt a mansion or a loft or nething..aftrall dey hav magical powers wth dem..dey cn do nething..nd need nt hav master to serve..one fine day with all my queries i went to nani n she xplained dat "responsibility or power comes with a limitation tag attached to it"....nw i thnk she did saw spiderman..

she lovd to watch cartoons..just lyk me...i used to sprawl lavishly infront of d tv switching from 1 cartoon channel to another..n nani fussing abt my hairs, me nt eating food..nd abt wat a spoilt rabbit i am...she used to njoy my laugh nd den join me in it..

curly locks of hairs..n dose big eyes..she was very butiful..nd smhw..secretly smwhr..i always wished to be lyk her..

she was dere to hold when i fall..

she was dere when i refuse to get up..n try again.

she was dere to say dat i cn do nethin i want to

she was dere to protect..n hide me ..when i was scared

my childhood revolved around her..nd i had dis butiful world all created around her...coz i always knew she'l just stay wth me 4ev..

last dec late at nite masi called me to say dat she is no more...she was at d last stage of cancer

at first i tht...dat smbdy would snatch d ph from her n say dat is all a big bad jok n den i'll yell on everybdy..nd tell dm nev to do dis again...bt it nev happnd..

mum proved to b very strong to handle d news..

nd all thru d nite i cried..nd missed her..i denied n refused 2 accept dat she left me all alone..

bt by d morning ..i realised dat..smwhr inside...i was very happy dat she is no more in pain..n wherev she's gone....she is very happy

to handle myself i decided nev 2 talk abt it...wth nebdy..bt fynally i gt tired of running

i cnt frgt my fairygodmother..her magic stick she used to get me solutions for every rocksolid prb

...i was her genie..

d wild n crazy genie...with no master...n magical powers...

a lil butterfly..who is very desprt to learn hw to fly

i knw she is nt gone...she is still smwhr around me...nd thinking what a wild spoilt brat i am..nt studing n blogging..

bt m sure she lyks d way i write...(she always used to)

dnt knw what i'll do abt feeling lonely..or lost smtimes...bt m sure..dat she'll like my style of handling every thng dat'll cm my way in future..

i'll always stay lyk her wildest genie...

ps: srry guys to post after a decade...

bt nehw...a verrrry happ new year 2 u ppl..wishing u a very happy n succesful year ahead.i knw its very late...to wish

apologies...!!

random

aaj us se baat karne ka bohat dil kiya....
jee khol kar hasne ka...
rone ka..
uspar bohat naraz hone ka..
uska vo mnana...gudgudana..
meri bato par..baccho ki tarah khush ho jana...
kabhi daantna...fir naak sikor kar pyaar se chipak jana..
rote rote koi stupid joke marna...fir khud he hasne lag jana.

dil kiya ki aaj khul kar khush ho jaoun..
bina kisi dar ke...uski bahon me chup jaoun

hamesha ki tarah vo khushi khushi samet lega apne andar kabhi nahi jane dene ke liye...
us pyaar ka ahsas ab bhi h uski yaado me...
lekin dar lagta h ab...
apne andhero se kahi dhak na du use...
shayad...mera na hona hi uski khushi h..
kitna anjana sa lagta h ab khud ka bhi ahesas


aajj bohat dil kiya us se batiyane ka..
uski dhakkan jaisi batein sun ne ka...
use dhakkan bulane ka..
bohat pyaar karne ka...

....

d tiniest prb with me while writing is dt m nev able to knw wht can b the mst flattering line to start a post...nd yes offcourse wht 2 write abt..

hang on a min..dt makes 2..oh whutev...!!
so where were we..
yeah..abt "the tiniest prb" i hav..
well...so b4 retiring to bed..after all d "rola rappa" i did all day long..suddenly..a gust of magical wind slide thru my window..nd at dt magical moment i had d.."ooohhh i have a blog...!! " realisation..
so fynally all thanks 2 my realisation..m fynally tryin to write my 2 nd post...which is nthin bt a concoction of certain randm stuf...
well actually nowdays everything dat happns to me is very random or weird..
the other day i was walkin down the road..u knw very casual..very nrmal..all thanks to my "tunnu" being nt well..(4 d information...tunnu is my frst love..my butiful honda deo..a gft from ma folks...5 saal pehle..) so where was i..yeah i was walking down the road...tryin to help maa a lil fetchin stuff 4 her..nd nt being d pain in her neck dat i nrmaly proove 2 b...i was busy eyeing dis barf ka gola wala uncl..(nt d uncl dude...nt ma typ..d barf ka gola...yummm...!!) dis guy...walkd 2 me..oh he wasnt the "love me do" kinds..nt even cute...jst sm randm guy...asking me for an adress...so lyk every other nrmal human..with eyes glued to barf a gola..i reacted in "i-dnt-knw-dude" shrug..nd mummbld smthing abt d same..well...d guy dsnt seem 2 take it lyk dat..he grabbed my hands..nd askd "y u nev talk to me..."
oohh nw dt was sm kinda ques...! why am i such a weirdo magnet...WHY???
...d next "logical step" i took...was...i ran way.. oh yes...i RAN away..
literally..!! (pt usha ko bhi proud feel hoga)
why m such a wierdo..?? WHY??
(oh sholly 2 much of melodrama)
nw few ppl readin dis post probably will b reaching for dere cell ph...or landlines(lack of balance..trust me i undrstnd) to ask me if it really happned..yes it did..4 d rest of juicy details..contact me..
er...i think i went a ltl off-topic..
i knw the 1 of its kind idiot i am..

bt at dis butiful hr .. wht do u expect from me..??
4 nw...i thnk i'll leave u guys 2 thnk abt wht 2 comment on my post..(i knw some of dem r speechless..n sm of dm mst b swearin under there breath)

ps: 4 ppl who knw me..i knw my writing style is more of me talkin...nd my apologies...i really dnt knw how 2 write...i mean nt literally..offcrs m literate..bt i cnt write as good as kashika..or kalyan..or ne other blogger frnd..bt i thk i'll try my hand on sm serious topic....thanku so much 4 tolaerating ma post

well actually m supposed 2 write sm kind of "funny" nice wlcm post..
but at dis butiful hr...totally awake..n in no... abso no mood to write anythng...
bt coz......its been ages...since ma blog ka shree ganesh n..no post...!!!!

so fynaly...i planned to write...er.....smthng..
..
i thnk i shud bttr start wth d introductions..

so hey dere...nice ppl...m kaushiki..aka kishi..nd dis is my blog...i knw i knw...u mst b wndring eetna bore blog kon padega...but hang on dude..!!
i dnt write dt bad..(i thnk so..)

but still a word of caution:

"b4 readin nething on my blog..plss do tie urself 2 ur respective chairs...(in case u wanna run away)

keep the puke bag nd water ready (as at ne point of word u feel sick)

also..keep all d neccesary info by ur side..(in case of emergency..)"


bt still i thnk i dnt write dat bad...!!

trust me...er...mayb...oh m sure..

i really dnt write dat bad